Redemption Day Reverb

How I wished you didn't turn up
And been the runaway bride 
I wanted you to be
That fated day when we spoke our vows 
All I could see was the look in your eyes
The dancing, the toasts n swollen smiles
I was so lost through it all
Then we drove off to a thrown bouquet
Never looked back until long gone
All I can remember when I turn back now
Is the endless love we made all day n night
Wish it all could have stayed that way
But then I had to be the man I was always meant to be
And break you down for all the things I couldn't be
You still held on to the pieces that would never add
Until the day when you disappeared in a haze
I can still remember the look in your eyes 
As you slowly faded at the edge of my rage 
Now I sit here waiting all alone 
All walled up and chained and a number by name
How I wish you would turn up again